Dusk to Dawn

[klwilliams]

I am now on the friends list of two dead people, kathlaw and lmeyer. Kath killed herself over two years ago now, but the memory is still painful, and always will be. Lynn, or Halima, as I knew her, died just a couple of weeks ago. There is some question as to whether her death was deliberate or not, but she was depressed and was on disability, and if she did take her own life I would understand.

Still.

Before she died she sent $75 through the mail, for sponsorship for me for the Overnight, the walk I'm going on July 22 to raise money for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.

I would probably have more fun going on a walk for breast cancer, since several of my friends go on those and I could join a team. But, of the women close to me, friends and family, who have had breast cancer, every one of them survived. Of my friends and family who have tried to commit suicide (that I know of -- there could be many more), only one survived. So I'll walk into the dusk among strangers, and when we walk into the dawn maybe I'll have some new friends. Or we'll just depress each other. :-)

So, friends, please support me. I'm tired of losing the people who are close to me, and I bet you are, too. And for those who have already donated through the link below, thank you so very much.

http://www.theovernight.org/index.cfm?fuseaction=extranet.personalpage&confirmid=10003564

Comments

[janni.livejournal.com]

I know it's not much help, but if I lived up there, I'd walk with you--I think it's a fabulous thing you're doing.

Lately for some reason I've been thinking I wouldn't mind if kathlaw's journal were to go away--it seems time (to me, anyway) somehow.

[klwilliams.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

At this point, I'm a little weirded out by being on two dead people's friends list.

[windrose.livejournal.com]

You know, this is something I'd like to do with you if my health will allow.

[klwilliams.livejournal.com]

And I so wish you could, and I could walk with you. I know you'll be there in spirit, though.

[sartorias.livejournal.com]

Well, I'll be there in spirit. This is an important thing you are doing, and I salute you.

[klwilliams.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I will walk happily, thinking of my good friends.

[divalea.livejournal.com]

Lea Hernandez here. I'm afraid my donation is modest, but I hope it helps. Katherine and I had our differences, but she showed me the way to graciousness, and told me she was proud of me, which was totally amazing to me, she wrote stuff people actually saw, you know?
I hope it makes sense when I say I am devastated by the devastation. I hope it helps to say if it weren't for what I saw happened After Katherine, I might not be typing this today.

Have a good walk.

[klwilliams.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. And I'm very, very glad you're here today.

[divalea.livejournal.com]

So am I! I still don't know if I'm right about Harry Potter's scar! I had a jolly good time wrestling my daughter's and son's legally-protected rights a public school students from the district! I would've missed having a wild bird perch on me at the zoo!

There's so many reasons to see the future, not the least of which is to call Art Bell and be able to legitimately claim you're a time traveler and get his ass all wound up.

My daughter's disappointed there's no walk local to or near S.A., but we both support you.

[(Anonymous)]

Thanks for your support!

One thing I thought of, which is not terribly important in the grand scheme of things, was that when Jo Clayton was so sick and in the hospital, she would die before "Babylon 5" ended, and wouldn't get to know what happened. (JMS told her, as it turned out.)

I decided when Kath died that I would never kill myself, and I remind myself on occasion of all the things I've got to see that I wouldn't have seen if I died, and all the things I'm looking forward to.

[klwilliams.livejournal.com]

That was me, by the way.

[darcyjavanne.livejournal.com]

I'll be there in spirit, guinea pigs in tow. I think it's awesome that you're doing this!

I printed out the mail-in form and put it with my bills. I hope to have some $ left over at the end of the month, and I'll send as much as I can.

[klwilliams.livejournal.com]

That's so sweet of you. Thanks, and thanks to the piggies.

[(Anonymous)]

I'm sending money. I've been often depressed and have been suicidal twice, and life is just a joy to me now. I'm so glad that I didn't close myself off to all of my opportunities to get help and to face the future. Most don't know that they can do it, that such hopelessness can be overcome. I didn't know. It takes time and the correct medications and a lot of support, but losing a single person to fear and sadness is losing those most sensitive people, and therefore the most useful in the approach to a future without hatred and violence and WITH kindness and cooperation, and we HAVE to preserve these folks' well-being.

Coke